I Asked God

     I asked God to give me trust without borders. I asked him to send me, to lead me where he wanted me. I asked him to say "GO" and I would go. And so I went, I took the leap. And as I have been here I feel like I have lacked. I started to put marks on where I thought I should be spiritually and mentally. I started to limit myself and limit God. But I felt God reveling to me that he is not marking where I am at and I shouldn't either.

    Before this realization I stopped updating people. I didn't want to write about my struggle with homesickness and culture shock and not understand what God was doing in my life. I was hesitant to be real. I don't know why we have this thing as humans that makes us want to portray that our lives are perfect. I was feeling like I only wanted to update people if I had amazing things to say. But today I was reminded by my Dad and his good friend Oswald Chambers that " The things Jesus did were the most menial of everyday tasks." So some of my days are spent doing the most menial of tasks like doing the dishes or cleaning the bathrooms, but that is okay.

    And this is the most recent lesson I have learned. I have learned that leaving home and doing ministry is not meant to be easy it's not meant to be comfortable and I have experienced that discomfort, but I have also experienced God working in me and pushing me to be better. For me it took coming to Africa to realize so many things in my life. I have realized it's okay to share with all of you every step of my journey the good and the hard and that you will love me anyway and you want to hear from me anyway. So thank you all for your love and your support and your prayers and here is my first step in getting better about being real with all of you. And lastly I am so glad that I prayed for God to send me and that he sent me. 

Karlie